In September 2012 i was diagnosed with a social anxiety disorder and OCD. I have struggled with my mental health for as long as i can remember but never had it diagnosed as i was too scared. My teenage years were a struggle and i didn't seem to fit in with any other teenage boys and i was constantly teased for being overweight, I was a victim to the generic insults, whale, pig etc.
I am now 40 years old and I still struggle in social situations I recently lost a job because it required me to drive and my social anxiety has taken over and made me too fearful to drive, the busy roads are too much for me to handle since I stopped driving. I am fearful of leaving the house and keep pushing it back saying i will go out tomorrow. I dislike my body and the way I look and I believe thats a result of the teasing I went through as a teenager. I've taken may different medications over the years and sometimes i feel like my life has flashed before my eyes and I'm unsure where all the years have gone and what I've done in them.. My biggest support is my wife and the unconditional love she gives me helps me continue my life I'm unsure if I would still be here without her support..
I think the only way to combat our mental health is to talk about it, whether thats in therapy or discussing with other people who suffer with mental illnesses. I have taken may medications but the thing i think that helps me is talking about it and getting how I'm feeling off my chest. Sometimes I'm still fearful about leaving the house and doing day to day tasks and other days I feel completely fine. Its a journey that is a struggle but i am still fighting..