I was diagnosed with depression in May after struggling with persistent low mood since January. I suspect that I have been struggling with it on and off for about 5 years but this is the longest sustained episode and the first time I've been officially medically diagnosed.
I'm on medication and I'm in therapy and there's no doubt that they're helping me. I know there's plenty of people with depression who have it far worse than I do and have struggled for much longer, but I'm just so tired feeling this way it makes me want to bang my head off a wall. It seems like one tiny knock can make me spiral right back down into the depths again, and today is just one of those days.
I miss the happy, hopeful girl I used to be, and it feels like it's been so long since I was that way that it's hard for me to see how I can ever get back. I'm terrified that this is going to be my reality for the rest of my life and I can't bear the thought of it.
I don't like going on about how i feel but if i don't talk about it i feel like my head is going to explode.Love and support to everyone else suffering with mental health problems as being a slave to your own mind is genuinely one of the worst things I think a person can go through and I wouldnt wish it on anyone.